indeed it has been a month or so since i have blogged and here we are, already in the second month of the year! time really has flown way too quick for me to catch up.
the last month hasnt been all that great but i am fortunate to be living.
what has happened?
well, as part of my new year's resolution, i wanted to start learning how to make coffee..a barista actually and so i thought i was going to achieve this goal so soon already because i had applied at this new chocolate/coffee restaurant. i was so grateful when i was notified that i had gotten the job and appreciated my motivation to achieve this particular new year's resolution. not long after, i started my first shift. as always, it takes a couple of weeks to get used to the environment and atmosphere so my first shift wasn't all that fun. the next few shifts i had were alright.... if i had to rate how happy i was working at that time, i'd say 5. neutral. eventually things turned for a downfall and i wasnt enjoying as much as i imagined it to be. the restaurant was very unorganised and a few times, they had contacted me and used 'there are too many people working' excuse to tell me that i didn't need to do my shifts. eventually, with a personality like mine, i was frustrated and gave it a long thought if it was me that was the trouble to them. was i not up to pace or doing something wrong. luckily, i broadened up my perspective and to just forget about the job. it is just a casual job and it wont be my career. although it is my resolution to be a barista and i might have already just failed that, i still need to set up my priorities. so just yesterday, i handed back my uniform. all has been gone pretty much. i have to achieve this resolution...maybe not this year, only if time is giving me a chance. i have got to say that i am so so so fortunate that i have kept my previous job otherwise..ill be jobless and it is increasingly difficult to be employed nowadays.
so now that's out of my mind, i feel much more .. opened up to more options that will lighten me up. i am currently also trying to find a job that is related to my study degree because i know it's important to get a head start before everything is too late.
anyway, other than that, i haven't done much. recently, i started exercising. not to lose weight but i feel like i need to go out and just release my inner thoughts. secondly, to be more paced because i feel fat but i know im not but it's just that my breathing isnt paced and exercising might be the solution to it. in other words, i don't feel fit enough.
oh, and just a few days ago, i hanged out with a few friends of mine. it was just a casual meet up, no agenda in particular. however, when i was with them for the short 3-4 hours, i felt really distant because it felt like i didnt have much to say or talk about and it kind of makes me feel...awkward in the group...not that there is a group anymore. everyone is dispersed out in general. i am not too sure if my life is really boring that i have nothing to talk about like as in, i dont go to any of those big events, general outings and all of that may have been the result of this whole awkwardness. this awkwardness has obviously accumulated over time. i'd say since the end of high school, i have gradually been 'deteriorating' from this whole social life/network.
however, i hope that this will heal overtime and things will be the way it has been a couple of years ago. but anyway, none this emo crap.
on a bright note, i got a new phone...my first smartphone should i say. i feel really...un-updated. but anyway, im glad i got a new phone. its the best gift i got in years! :)
oh and the same bright end..... this youtube group by the name of Wongfu Productions introduced a new awkward animal. and guessssssss what it is?!?!?!?!??!?! AWKWARD GIRAFFEE. it's adorable and cute and unique and it's a giraffe!! for god sakes! its the most wonderful thing brought into this UNIVERSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sadly, its AUD26 D: i mean, i would get it..but i dont come from a family that allows me to be flexible in spending. but that's totally okay for now! i saved it as my wallpaper on my phone and that should be enough for the time being ^^
anyway, its time for some lunch! :)
